Hey all! It’s been a little while since I last blogged. I can’t believe how quick the time has passed as it only seems like I posted a few weeks ago! Life has been quite busy recently and for that reason I’ve not felt up to blogging.
Sometimes Things Don’t Go To Plan
Christmas was extremely busy and I’d not been feeling too great during the festive period. I had a noticeable increase in various symptoms that deep down I knew what the problem was. I didn’t do anything about it since I just felt so fedup of my health getting in the way. Looking back I should have addressed this issue sooner as it completely fudged up a surgical procedure on 28th December. They found an intestinal stricture (as I said – I knew what my problem was) which needed fixing. Unfortunately it meant that what I went in for got sidelined.
I was in a significant amount of pain when I came around and after IV Fentanyl, I ended up admitted and on a PCA. Not how I wanted to spend my time. Especially when I had blog and family stuff planned.
Adjusting To Life With A Feeding Tube Has Been Hard
On top of the above issues, I’ve been learning to adjust to life with a feeding tube. Despite it being placed in September, it’s not an easy thing to adjust to. At least not in my case. Thanks to my Pancreatic Agenesis, I have Pancreatic Enzyme Insufficiency. Meaning every 2 hours I am having to flush replacement enzymes through my tube. As you can imagine, it dictates every moment of my day. And for a while, I just buried my head in the sand. I felt overwhelmed and also sad that things had become so bad with my health. Of course this didn’t do much for my mental health.
Things Are Getting Better
They really are. My wheelchair has helped give me a new lease of life. No longer am I dictated to by pain and other issues. I’m able to get out and enjoy time with my family. I’m also doing so much better physically and mentally with my feeding tube. The start was hard but now things are easier. I’m thankful for feeling alive and gaining some weight back. And being able to be present in my life.
Naturally I am getting back to blogging. This time I am setting myself a timetable of 2 days a week rather than 7 days a week of work (a lot goes on behind the scenes!) so I don’t burn out.
Thanks for your patience and your messages through email and social media. They’re appreciated.
Here’s to 2018 and feeling better!