Today the small boy and I attended our very first nappicino (for those that have no idea what that is, it’s a meet for cloth nappies!).
I was extremely nervous and prior to leaving I almost talked myself out of going. But I forced myself out the front door. Anxiety wasn’t going to win today.
So, in true style of Friday 13th bad luck, I got soaked walking to the bus stop and my skirt was dragging along the floor, soaking up every ounce of that rain. Then my bus passed me. I may have stamped my feet like a toddler. It was early by 5 minutes. Brilliant. But then a stroke of luck, another bus came along as I was trudging along and pulled over to let me on (nice man!)
We arrived in town and as I was walking down, I was getting really nervous again. I just kept thinking about the toddler group we attended this week and how awful it was. The women were so cliquey and made me feel very out of place. I won’t lie, I came close to turning around and heading to the bus stop. But I thought about it for a second – these ladies were cloth bum mums. They were my sort of people.
I’m glad I didn’t turn around and head home. The ladies were absolutely lovely. Conversation just flowed and the kids seemed to enjoy themselves (Well, I know Jacob did. He loves the ladies!)
As I am sure you know, I am an enthusiastic baby wearer. And today one of the ladies wanted some help with a back carry. I procrastinated about this all of last night. Wrapping my baby is one thing, but tutoring someone else infront of others is another. I spoke at great lengths last night with my consultant friend, Samantha from Geeky Sweetheart, and she gave me some good advice.
My darling child decided to pass out around the time I was asked to demo (cheers, Jacob!) but luckily one of the other mamas let me borrow her little girl (Thanks, Rachel – she is a little star). Demo, done. And I was far less nervous than I thought I would be. With that, the mama gave it a whirl and it was spot on (Haydee, you’re a pro!) Her little girl looked so happy in the wrap and I cannot tell you how proud I felt. You see, I love baby wearing. Seeing parents and their children being carried. It’s such a special thing , so to spread some baby wearing love, it felt really good.
Today I left feeling confident. Confident in my abilities to help others wrap their babies and confident in myself as a person. I haven’t felt like that in such a long time, not since before I lost my job. I’ve remembered how much I enjoy helping people and the satisfaction that goes with it. I’m getting my life back. Anxiety, screw you. Your days of having a hold over me are numbered.
First step, my slingmeet next week. Second step, baby wearing peer supporter course. Next, the world (okay, I jest on the last one 😉 )
– Thank you for letting me use this photo, Haydee –